Sunday, 25 March 2012

wisdom tooth post-operation (episode 2)

Monday passed, Tuesday passed, Wednesday!! Okay, that was the day I stepped to class room after had been rested for a week! A friend of mine from China ,(I'll name her) Funny-funny, did not know that I just came back from MC and I couldn't laugh! Funny-funny kept asking me about one of Thai Horror films that she watched, and expressing how scary it was. I just stood there, and gave her a smile. Then, she continued to talk about many other things, but I could not understand what she tried to say anymore. So, I told her, "ermmm sorry there's a hole in my gum, you know, I can't talk much my dear, and also I haven't been really eating for a, I guess there's not enough blood in my brain..I'm kinda blur blur". Her expression suddenly changed, because she also had  this same experience; it was even more scary than mine; and more scary than the film she watched. Then, I started to laugh softly.   

Thursday (22-March-2012) was the day I went for removing surgical suture. So, I went to that same place again. The place that I will not forget.. A woman who reminded about the appoinment on phone seems worried about  me. The day before, she called me and I thought it was a student service from school. So I asked her "I have to collect (some document) with who?". And she asked " Are you okay?" that what she asked again when was in the clinique.

Now, let's skip to the important part. removing surgical suture!
The docter is nice to be as always :) He said "arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh open your mouth wider". I admit that it was not as easy as the first time, but I tried to open wider, and wider...And then I saw a scissor O_O He put it into my mouth and then 'cling cling cling cling' "ok! done! very good!".

I found that I can open mouth much easier after removed the cotton out. However, the left side of my mouth was a bit numb. So I'll have to be back here to check again in the next month. and also, I have to start brushing my teeth :) he said, "you must brush you teeth ahh! very very important ah! otherwise, infection..."

(@Orchard) This is my food  for a small celebration with myself haha. I don't know what motivated me to buy bubble tea =-=. I spit all the pearls out =P

And I moved into a comfort zone :) A kid zone in books store! :D 

 Tin-tin collection! :D 

(@compass point) I miss drinking this Japanese rice liqueur =) It's not too expensive, I guess.. $13? that sounds okay.. I think. But I did not buy any =P I can't drink alchohol now; it'll affect my tooth nerves; many many nerves 

Friday (23-March-2012)

(@school) Chicken Spaghetti for lunch (the taste is somehow like Chinese food =-=)

(@Sengkang Community Club) Yay! My laptop+Moblie broadband were there with me. I can be online there =) How cool! 

Saturday (24-March-2012)

It was the second time that I visited National Musuem of Singapore :) I went there again coz' my friend, Lu Lu, had extra free tickets haha! So, we went there and observed around. 

National Musuem of Singapore presents everything about Singapore :) There's a lot of information. Although I've been there once, I still couldn't really see all part of the musuem. 
And the green things that make me look very 'clumsy' (thanks P'Saosao for the new vocab suggestion) are the guides explaning about stuffs shown in the musuem.  

Sunday (26-March-2012) 

I was glad; it was another day for walking around the world (ermm just some small small parts in SG, actually)! Mos Burger was my lunch. I ordered meal set; did not expect the set to be that big. It was, and it was $8+ screams! So as I'm from Thai culture background, I asked the guy at counter for a plastic bag. And he gave it to me, so I was happy and excited to go Sunday church service @ New Creation Church.

 Before the church service started, I had few hours to walk and enjoy taking photographs of every inspiring thing.So, I took photographs of everything 8-)  

A tall tower @ Esplanade area

Cool piece of art at Esplanade 

Another one..

Next one..


I finally stopped at the highest floor =) It's Library @ Esplanade. I <3 this place so much. There are a lot of books about arts, novels, films, music. I went inside and had a self-studying Auuuu auuu ahhh ahhh. Yes, I have to focus on my study; but I also want to enjoy my life. So, I'll find nice places to study :D and continue to take photographs and write my blog :)) 

There's something more about it. And I want to express here. I need to go school already! ahh after school, I'll come back and say about this most important part of the blog today. 

26-March-2012 Tonight! (20 mins before mid-night)

Hi, before I gonna fall a sleep, let me continue with what I've written eariler; 'the most important part of my blog today' (but now it's night).. it's obivously a reason behide what I've said 'Yes, I have to focus on my study; but I also want to enjoy my life.'

 I had a very strong sense of 'loneliness' yesterday. I can't make it clear about how I feel by just saying that I was lonely, and it's also not easy to explain.  I want to express my feelings here, but I don't know how to construct sentences, as I'm still analyzing about my self. Also, I might not really to want to mention about my true feeling?In fact, it was just feeling at the moment.. it comes and goes, comes and goes.. but I just don't want to let it dominate my life anymore, so I let it go..

Well, I decided to write about my 'loneliness' haha. I'll try my best to put it in simple words.
From what I heard from one 'research-storyteller' , "vulnerability" is caused by losing sense of belonging.. I think this is probably relates to my lonely story =S I don't know what I'm talking about now. I'm sleepy and tired already. Let just put it in short, I have been studying oversea for two years, staying alone.. and I'm far from home, and physically far from family (I need to put 'physically', as I often talk to them via online world), and I don't have much friends here. For me, number of friends is not important, but I just feel that there is no one that I'm really close to (oops, this is very long). I have this problem with getting into relationship, I'm scared of getting into deep relationship with people in this world O_O. I know it's hard to explain, but I know someone understand what I mean. Anyway, I tried to type and construct sentences, yet can't make them understandable. So, I will just leave it like that.. now I know this is not a true feeling! it's just so confusing that I don't even know what I was talking about. Oh, but one thing came to my mind, I remembered one thing; I had been thinking of myself.. like why I can't be like other teenagers who enjoy their teenage life, you know? Why I'm so serious with study-life? (that was what I had been thinking during the time of confusion. Now, I even feel more confused when I think about that confusing thoughts lol, and I'm writing super long confusing sentences in a bracket oops; I have to stop writng about it lol really really).

Lord, You know everything. Beyond my analytical thinking, You know. And as I know how much You love me, every confusing feeling is gone. You are the only one that fills gaps in my heart. When I remember the post-operation date, the moment that I couldn't help my self , I remember that You were with me.. and You are with me now :) When I heard Your name 'Jesus', I'll think of myself. Because I am Yours. Christ is in me and I'm in You. So everything that relates to You also relates to me. My dreams and plans are placed in Your hands. I lay myself down, but You are the one to be lifted up! You are the hero of my life! And yes, the hero of this world. :) I don't have to be sad, because You are near. I don't have to try not to be sad, because I can't do that, but You bring joy to life. So let my life be filled with color again :) I trust in Your power. I believe for Your blessings beyond circumstances that I see. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Song of a week :) 
 "When we were broken inside
The River was Love
When we were thirsty and dry
You were more than enough"

So sleepy !Goodnight!
Ohh I want to show my yummy dinner hahaha (it looks veryvery breakfast! but I had it for dinner haha)      

Bye bye! hope you enjoy my sleepy blog =) I'll  be more busy week ahead, but don't worry, I'll publish new post for sure =D